New Year New Me?: Starting a New Chapter

I have never been one to believe in New Year’s resolutions because honestly most of the time they end up in failure anyway. I think setting yourself goals (i.e improving your grades, getting a new job, saving up for a new computer, writing a book etc.)  you want to achieve within the months to come is great but resolutions have never been for me because I’m a firm believer in continuous change. It’s your life and if you want to change something about it or change something about yourself you can work on getting that change whenever you feel like you’re ready. You don’t need a new year to do so, at least  that’s what I think. But if you’re of one the people who do like to make resolution for the new year then you do you, honey. Each to their own!

Needless to say I have never really made a list of resolutions but I do want to set some personal goals for 2018. I feel like this year is going to be an exciting yet scary year for me because I know a lot is going to change. I recently finished my BA degree and I am now waiting on my diploma, so I can apply for real grown up adult jobs. It’s been a few months since I’ve handed in my BA thesis yet I still can’t believe I’m now officially a college graduate. Sometimes it feels like I only graduated high school just yesterday and now I’m already finished with my first degree. Now I have to really figure out want I want to do with my life, find a job and look for MA programs. It’s exciting because one chapter of my life has come to an end and a new one is starting but it’s also nerve-wrecking and scary at the same time because at this point my future is entirely unknown.

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My plan for the upcoming months is to find a job or internship in my field so I can gain some experience before hopefully starting an MA degree next fall. I really want to make 2018 all about focusing on pushing myself forward in terms of work and academics. In the past few months I’ve been working in retail to make some money while waiting for my diploma and looking into possible jobs/programs. I’ve been wanting to start working on applications for so long yet most of the time I couldn’t get myself to really get into it. I think my biggest problem is the fear of not being good enough since I don’t have a lot of work experience yet other than some student jobs in retail or smaller internships. So in 2018 I want to overcome my fears and try to gain as much experience and knowledge as I possibly can. Instead of being insecure about the inevitable change I’m facing I want to embrace it and make the most of it. Change can be very good and the fact that I’ve finished my BA degree also opens up lots of new opportunities for me and I can’t wait to see what 2018 has in store.

Whether you make resolutions or set yourself goals or you just wait and see what the new year brings I wish you all lots of success and hope you get to make the most out of 2018!

Happy New Year and lots of love,

Sophie

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Cause True Friendship Really Doesn’t Know Distance

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I was inspired to write this post by a lovely email I got this morning from a very special friend of mine. You know how people always say true friendship knows no time or distance? That you can go weeks without talking to someone and nothing will change? I feel like that kind of friendship is very rare and very special and if you do ever experience such a friendship you should hold on to it and never let go. Like never ever in a million years because you probably won’t find such a thing again.

So how do I begin with this post? Well, let’s start with a bit of background information. Until nearly four years ago I used to live in a small town within the greater New Orleans area in Louisiana, but in June 2011 I moved away from there. While I was living there I went to a very small private school but nonetheless I had a bunch of great friends. Now nearly 4 years later I’m still in touch with a few of them but there’s one friend I made there, who is just extra special to me. We met on my first day when I was still a newbie at that school and we immediately got along. You know when you meet someone and somehow everything fits together perfectly and you’re just like where have you been all my life? It was kind of like that. We started hanging out all the time and I could literally talk to her about anything without feeling weird. Usually I’m not that kind of person who talks about their feelings or worries or anything too personal very much but with her it was different. She’s one of the few people I could be completely myself with because I knew for a fact that she would never ever judge me no matter what.

Now four years later we’re still in touch. We don’t talk that often and we haven’t seen each other in person in 4 years but whenever I get an email from her or whenever we actually do manage to find the time to Skype it just feels so familiar and so natural. I can still open up to her about anything even though we’re nearly 5000 miles apart, I haven’t seen her in so long and we don’t talk on a regular basis. But it literally makes no difference. Whenever I hear from her it just takes me straight back to 16 year old me having a blast at those Friday night football games or stressing about finding the perfect dress for homecoming with one of the best friends I could’ve ever asked for.

For years we’ve been making these plans about me coming back to Louisiana and visiting her or her coming over to Europe. We even thought about traveling Europe together over the summer and made all these crazy plans. Unfortunately we haven’t been able to turn anything into reality yet but since we’re both turning 20 this year our plans actually do become a bit more realistic.

Ever since I was little we’ve moved around a lot. I’ve already lived in 9 different cities in 3 different countries.The longest I’ve ever lived in the same place was for 5 years.  I’ve met a bunch of people in my life and I know what it’s like to have to say goodbye to your friends not knowing when or if you will ever see them again. I also know what it’s like to be the new kid all the time. When I was younger I had good friends as well. Friends I would have called my best friends at the time but every time I moved away again I would eventually lose contact to them.

I feel like a friendship in which you can be 100% yourself is very rare and I’m so glad I’ve found a friend like that, even though we may be living miles apart at the moment it doesn’t change anything between us at all and I find that to be such a beautiful thing. Her emails still make my entire day and if there’s ever a time when I’m really down and need to talk to someone she’s the first person I turn to because I know for a fact that she will always be there for me just like I’ll always be there for her no matter what.

So as I’ve already said in the beginning of this post if you ever find a friendship that can’t even be separated by miles and miles hold on to it. Cause who needs those so-called friends who can’t even take a minute out of their day to text you back when you have a friendship like that, right?

As always thanks so much for reading!

Lots of love,

Sophie

Letting Go and Being Happy

Hey guys!

I know my posting schedule has been a little off lately but I think I have a good reason for that. As you may or may not know I’m still at my grandparents. While my parents left on Sunday my brother and I decided to stay until Friday. When we were little we used to spend a lot of our summers here. Usually whenever we moved to another place because of my dad’s occupation my brother and I would stay at our grandparents over the summer while our parents moved everything. I have a lot of happy memories of those times. When my brother and I grew older and my family finally settled down we started visiting my grandparents less and less because they live pretty far away. Especially now that I’m at Uni I barely see my grandparents.

For the past months I’ve been worrying about University and my future a lot but now that I’m officially enrolled for my second year I can finally relax and just let everything go. In general I would say I’m a pretty positive and happy person but I also worry. Oh I worry a lot. Maybe that’s why I have such sleeping issues. I don’t know. Anyway.. now that I’m at my grandparents and it’s a changed scenery I can feel like I can finally let go of my worries. At least for a little while. Currently I’m just enjoying my time with my brother and my grandparents. We’re doing a bunch of fun things and my brother and I are, in a way, reliving our childhood memories a bit. Yesterday we went to a mini golf park, which is a thing we always used to do when we were little. I’ve always hated it because I suck at it and I ALWAYS lose but my brother loves it. Today we’re going to a petting zoo. I feel like such a kid but I’m massively excited for that.

Another thing I’ve been doing is just chilling in my grandparents’ backyard. I just absolutely love their backyard. When I was little this used to be the most magical place to me because it’s pretty big and offers a lot of places to hide and I feel like I discover something new there every time I look. Plus they have the coolest most unique tree I’ve ever seen.

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I took my little baby Idgie with me but my grandparents have two dogs as well. One white and one black scottish terrier. They are the funniest little guys. Just look, aren’t they adorable?

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It’s been so nice to just get away from everything and slow down. Not worry about life. Not having to constantly please everyone. It can be so hard to balance uni, living in a different country and making time for family and friends. Sometimes it just gets really exhausting and all you want is an escape. The past few days have been my much needed escape and I’m feeling a lot happier now. It’s been so great to relive some happy childhood memories and to just enjoy life. Getting up in the morning and knowing that you’re going to have a fun day, spending it with people you love without any pressure, is one of the best feelings ever. Before I felt like I had run out of energy and I was just tired all the time but now I’m full of ideas and energy again.

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We went out to town a few times to just sit down in a restaurant, have a nice meal and just talk and catch up on stuff. Instead of watching TV we spent our nights sitting outside with a glass of chilled white wine playing fun games we used to play when we were kids. For once I haven’t really been texting many people. It’s not like I’ve been ignoring my friends but I haven’t really participated in any of our whatsapp group conversations. Whenever I was in the Netherlands and they were making plans because they all still live close I always felt like I was missing out but, for once, I just let go of that as well. As selfish as that may sound but I’ve been focusing on just enjoying the moment and doing things that make me happy. I’m already going back home on Friday and I kind of don’t even want to. I feel like I’m in this little happy bubble right now completely separated from everything else in my life. I know I’ll have to get back eventually but I feel like it’s going to be okay because I know my battery is now recharged and it’s time to get back to reaching for the stars and working on my goals as well as spending time with my friends.

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Oh and look at my new suitcase, you guys! I totally adore this. I was in desperate need of a new suitcase, especially since I’m going on a 2 week trip to England soon (Whoop whoop). Also I kind of have some plans of going abroad again next year but those are just plans in my head, so we’ll see about that.

I know I’ve been venturing out on this little blog of mine lately and posted more lifestyle posts but I really like writing those, so I truly hope you guys enjoy them as well. But don’t worry I already have a list of beauty related posts written down in my little notebook. I just have to type them up once I get back home. For now though I’m going to make the most of the few remaining days I have left at my grandparents.

Lots of love,

Sophie