Letting Go and Being Happy

Hey guys!

I know my posting schedule has been a little off lately but I think I have a good reason for that. As you may or may not know I’m still at my grandparents. While my parents left on Sunday my brother and I decided to stay until Friday. When we were little we used to spend a lot of our summers here. Usually whenever we moved to another place because of my dad’s occupation my brother and I would stay at our grandparents over the summer while our parents moved everything. I have a lot of happy memories of those times. When my brother and I grew older and my family finally settled down we started visiting my grandparents less and less because they live pretty far away. Especially now that I’m at Uni I barely see my grandparents.

For the past months I’ve been worrying about University and my future a lot but now that I’m officially enrolled for my second year I can finally relax and just let everything go. In general I would say I’m a pretty positive and happy person but I also worry. Oh I worry a lot. Maybe that’s why I have such sleeping issues. I don’t know. Anyway.. now that I’m at my grandparents and it’s a changed scenery I can feel like I can finally let go of my worries. At least for a little while. Currently I’m just enjoying my time with my brother and my grandparents. We’re doing a bunch of fun things and my brother and I are, in a way, reliving our childhood memories a bit. Yesterday we went to a mini golf park, which is a thing we always used to do when we were little. I’ve always hated it because I suck at it and I ALWAYS lose but my brother loves it. Today we’re going to a petting zoo. I feel like such a kid but I’m massively excited for that.

Another thing I’ve been doing is just chilling in my grandparents’ backyard. I just absolutely love their backyard. When I was little this used to be the most magical place to me because it’s pretty big and offers a lot of places to hide and I feel like I discover something new there every time I look. Plus they have the coolest most unique tree I’ve ever seen.


I took my little baby Idgie with me but my grandparents have two dogs as well. One white and one black scottish terrier. They are the funniest little guys. Just look, aren’t they adorable?


It’s been so nice to just get away from everything and slow down. Not worry about life. Not having to constantly please everyone. It can be so hard to balance uni, living in a different country and making time for family and friends. Sometimes it just gets really exhausting and all you want is an escape. The past few days have been my much needed escape and I’m feeling a lot happier now. It’s been so great to relive some happy childhood memories and to just enjoy life. Getting up in the morning and knowing that you’re going to have a fun day, spending it with people you love without any pressure, is one of the best feelings ever. Before I felt like I had run out of energy and I was just tired all the time but now I’m full of ideas and energy again.


We went out to town a few times to just sit down in a restaurant, have a nice meal and just talk and catch up on stuff. Instead of watching TV we spent our nights sitting outside with a glass of chilled white wine playing fun games we used to play when we were kids. For once I haven’t really been texting many people. It’s not like I’ve been ignoring my friends but I haven’t really participated in any of our whatsapp group conversations. Whenever I was in the Netherlands and they were making plans because they all still live close I always felt like I was missing out but, for once, I just let go of that as well. As selfish as that may sound but I’ve been focusing on just enjoying the moment and doing things that make me happy. I’m already going back home on Friday and I kind of don’t even want to. I feel like I’m in this little happy bubble right now completely separated from everything else in my life. I know I’ll have to get back eventually but I feel like it’s going to be okay because I know my battery is now recharged and it’s time to get back to reaching for the stars and working on my goals as well as spending time with my friends.


Oh and look at my new suitcase, you guys! I totally adore this. I was in desperate need of a new suitcase, especially since I’m going on a 2 week trip to England soon (Whoop whoop). Also I kind of have some plans of going abroad again next year but those are just plans in my head, so we’ll see about that.

I know I’ve been venturing out on this little blog of mine lately and posted more lifestyle posts but I really like writing those, so I truly hope you guys enjoy them as well. But don’t worry I already have a list of beauty related posts written down in my little notebook. I just have to type them up once I get back home. For now though I’m going to make the most of the few remaining days I have left at my grandparents.

Lots of love,


My 19th Birthday (What I did & What I got)

It seems like I haven’t blogged in forever though it’s barely been a week. I never believed this would happen but I miss blogging a lot, so I decided to take a break from studying for a little while and at least tell you guys how my birthday was.

I’ve mentioned it before, that I’m in the middle of exams right now and couldn’t go home for my birthday. At first I was pretty upset about that because the thought of spending my birthday in my little room all by myself working on a paper about the Great Gatsby just didn’t sound very appealing. The day before my birthday I just kept telling myself that there are way worse things in this world and that I should just appreciate the things I have and the opportunities I get. At first that worked but on my actual birthday I didn’t really. My family would always make me an amazing birthday breakfast and bake me a cake and I’d get presents and they’d just always make sure that my birthday was really special. Even though my housemates wished me happy birthday when the clock struck midnight and gave me an amazing present, a cupcake mix, a gift card to my favorite make up store and cookies, and I woke up to 20 lovely texts full of birthday wishes it just wasn’t the same. The texts kept coming and all my friends wished me a happy birthday and asked me what I’m doing, so having to tell everyone how I was doing nothing special except for studying made me even more depressing.

At 7.30 I was just about to put on my favorite pj’s, snuggle up in my bed and watch movies when our doorbell rang. I was wondering who that could be at that time so I made my way upstairs but one of my housemates had already opened the door. I heard these familiar voices and someone asking for me. When I went to the door I couldn’t believe my eyes. Seven of my really good friends, including my best friend, had come all the way to where I live in Holland just so I didn’t have to be alone on my birthday. They even brought sparkly wine and glow sticks. Trust me, I was close to tears. I’ve only known them all for about 2 and a half years because I transferred schools after my year in Louisiana and some of them I didn’t even become friends with until shortly before graduation because I never had classes with them and only met them through mutual friends.  I even got another gift card to my favourite make up store from them and my best friend got me the matching body lotion and shower gel to my favorite body mist from the body shop.



I guess I can definitely say I’ve found some amazing friends. I still can’t believe they did this for me. You guys should have seen my face when I saw them. My jaw just literally dropped and I couldn’t say a thing and just kept shaking my head in disbelief. After I realised that they really did come all the way we all tried to fit into my tiny little room and just celebrated me turning 19.

My parents and my brother told me that they were coming the next day, so I got up early on Saturday to clean up a little. They came at around 12pm and brought me a cake. YAY


So after unwrapping my presents we all sat down (along with my housemates) to have some cake. After that we went downtown. The city I live in is really beautiful. Its located alone a river and we had lovely weather. I don’t remember the last time it was that sunny and warm on my birthday. I still remember it snowing last year.  So we did a little bit of shopping and relaxing along the river side.


At around 7pm we went to have dinner and I had the best tomato soup ever.


Unfortunately my family had to leave after dinner but still I had one of the best days.

And here’s what else I got for my birthday.


From my grandparents I got this perfume I’ve been lusting over called Flowerbomb by Viktor and Rolf. And I also got a batman onesie. Yay! This was totally on my wish list. I can be a bit of a geek when it comes to superheros. Don’t know why but I just love them and Batman is, apart from Captain America, my favorite.


My brother got me a bunch of things from the Body Shop.


My parents got me a make up brush set.


I got this beautiful pearl necklace from my parents as well. Isn’t it absoultey gorgeous? I’ve been wanting to have a pearl necklace ever since I was a little girl. I kind of associate princesses and class with pearls, so I guess this is a childhood dream come true. From my (host)family in Louisiana I got these cute little earrings in the shape of Louisiana.


I also got a bunch of lovely cards from my relatives and 4 gift cards to my favorite make up store in total. I can’t wait to place my order and get some products off my wish list.


That’s basically how I spent my birthday. Even though I expected nothing from it it was definitely one of the bet birthdays ever. Sure I got some amazing presents but what made me happy the most was the fact that they all traveled all the way just to surprise me and celebrate with me. My friends and family totally succeeded in making me feel special on my day and I don’t even think I can put in words how much that means to me.

I hope you guys had a lovely weekend!

XX – Sophie